A teenage insight in to starting school

So, as this month’s theme is about changes/new starts, I thought it would make sense if I wrote about what it was like starting at secondary school, as I doubt Instagram has much in common with new starts and changes!

A daunting experience, it was, starting secondary school – definitely.

There’s no real description of what I felt or how I felt because quite honestly my emotions were all over the place.

Bearing in mind that my school is about an hour’s drive from where I live, and is a grammar school, I felt so much pressure and responsibility on my shoulders. Having previously attended my primary school in which I found myself top of most subjects and it being very close by, making the change to secondary meant leaving my friends behind, travelling and having to accept not always being the top.

The thing that terrified me most about going to secondary school was the thought of having to do so on my own. The thought soon became a reality.

I had a nice big group of friends as I left year six, approaching year seven I was starting to lose them. The anxiety started kicking in about now, as I didn’t really know where I stood amongst my friends.

I had spent about a year preparing for my 11+ exam and had days where I thought that I had worked hard for nothing, however I kept going.

From the moment, I knew I had secured myself a place at the school, I knew the next milestone in my life was significant as it marked adolescence. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t aware of the many challenges I was heading for, but I didn’t expect some of them.

There’s a quote, which I know has many alternatives to it, but I like this one:

When life gives you lemons, you’ve got to squeeze them.

If we are talking in ‘lemons’, lemons are sour. Full of acid. So, when life gives you lemons, you have got to squeeze them and get rid of the bitterness. If you don’t get rid of them then they will build up and get in your way. It’s the same as challenges, challenges are hard so when life gives them to you, you have to overcome them and push away all the negativity that is stopping you from doing or being what you want. If you don’t overcome challenges then soon they will grow 10 times bigger than you.

Life is guaranteed to throw stuff at you, whether its lemons or challenges it doesn’t matter, but my point is when life threw stuff at me, once I learnt that I had to do what had to be done, I built my confidence back up knowing that nothing could get in my way of my aspirations and dreams if I did something about it. At the end of the day it was up to me.

Moving from a big year six to a small year seven didn’t ever make any sense in my head until I walked down the intimidating corridors on my first day. Hordes of children much bigger than myself bustling past me, unintentionally shoving me into the pegs that lined the stretch of wall running parallel down the corridor.

At this point I missed primary, the friendly faces and the familiar surroundings.

It was a worrying prospect.

Being in company with so many new faces gave me the incentive to pretend or fake my identity, as I didn’t think there was anything worse than not fitting in. However, I soon learnt that I wanted to fit in and be accepted for who I actually was.

Slowly I made friends… lost friends and made friends again. Most importantly I proved to myself that I worked hard for a reason. I also settled down with some good friends who, 3 years on I know I will stick with for a long time. Still to this day I am learning how to start secondary despite the fact I am past that point.

It is Saturday the 26th August and I am 12 days away from starting back at school, year 10, GCSE course.
I almost feel like I am back at the start, which is scary. But if I think about it logically, I have done it once so surely, I can do it again?!

A new start is a chance to write a new story, and it looks nothing like your last book.

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